I have now come down with a really ghastly cold and lost my voice. For a person who loves talking next best after reading this is hard to bear. Especially when a best friend came to stay overnight on Friday, and we drove down to London together on Saturday. This is the friend with whom I have been on holiday twice, in holiday cottages in Norfolk and Dorset, and on each occasion we hardly drew breath in all our waking hours. This weekend I just had to curb my enthusiasm.
Anyway, we were talking (of course) about her negative feelings about her husband and mine about younger daughter. It made me realise, that of course this is just me being at a low ebb. Of course I love younger daughter to bits, and want her to enjoy her ski season immensely, and wish her the best.
This is what made me realise that the problem was within me. I was hearing my friend criticising her hub, and seeing that, actually, the poor guy is just the same as he has been for the last ten years (namely, not very exciting, has some irritating habits, etc). I could see that the problem really is that she herself is completely worn out, from working full-time, having three adult children still living at home and trying to keep it all together.
So then I realised that I too, was quite low from being ill, and that was why I felt negative.
Fortunately, daughter and I parted on good terms at the bus station. I helped her with her luggage, made sure that we stopped the postman as we drove up the road (he had the Foreign Exchange cash card in that day's delivery, which of course she needed for her trip), helped her find the place to wait, suggested she wrote her name on her luggage, and helped her with her sandwiches. And of course I told her I loved her, and gave her lots of hugs.
So that was OK.
With my friend, I told her that you never know what's round the corner, and as her husband is ten years older than she is, it would be better to forget bad things that have happened and focus on the good in whatever time there is left.
She said she thought I was right, and would try to.
My last revelation was how much my husband was clearly enjoying me not talking all the time!